When I told my parents I was pregnant, I knew they were smoking spice. That night, I let them know they would get to be sober if they wanted to be in this child’s life. There is no wiggle room. I’ve already experienced that kind of pain and I will NOT put my child through that.
My dad has been asking for grand babies for years. He doesn’t want the drugs and drama in life, he’s done that for too long. He thought things would be different when my mom got out of prison after a year, but things went right back to normal and he’s a really passive person, so he keeps letting it happen. He keeps buying her spice so she won’t bitch and moan. He’s not even happy. I think on some level he thinks this is what he deserves. Well, I get to really drill it into his head that he is WORTHY of so much more. He is worthy of happiness and peace, and he’s worthy of this grand baby.
When we have the recording of the heartbeat, I’m going to play it for them. Really, it’s just for him because I don’t think my mom will change until everyone has abandoned her. I’m going to press play and let him know that will be one of the last things I’m going to say, and that I’m not playing around. If he wants to see and hold the baby making that heartbeat, he gets to be clean. Whether it’s with or without mommy. He can either be comfortable with the woman who continues to bring him down, or he can be comfortable holding his first grandchild.
There is no wiggle room.