Raging Fits of Happiness

The things that light my soul on fire.

Something Beautiful

on December 28, 2016

I’ve been trying to think of a title for this, and I’ve had a few kind of pass through my mind so quickly that I couldn’t register them.

I guess fast-paced is how I’m doing things right now.

So, first off I’d like to apologize for the lack of posts in recent months. I’d also like to THANK those of whom have continued to follow me. It means a lot to know I basically have a crew of people who are reading my stuff and, kind of, in a way rooting for me.

As many of you know, Chris and I were kind of on and off throughout our relationship. From the other side of the internet, it might have seemed like we worked through everything. Well, there were several differences in our life paths that just didn’t match up and I was tired of trying to pretend they would.

We broke up a weekish, week and a half ago. About two weeks ago, my best friend, and ex, Travis, got out of jail. I received a text and was SUPER excited to be able to talk to him. As friends. I mean, we had one issue in our relationship, and while it was something that sucked balls, I could have handled it a lot differently. Now I have the tools to approach anything like that with more poise.

I was making a lot of stuff up about myself, and jumping back into a pseudo-relationship so quickly after a break up, but I got off that pretty quickly because of how perfect it felt, and feels. I’m the only one that can choose what I do, and who I’m with.  I think since I’ve learned how to truly forgive, and deal with things in more productive ways, the only shred of doubt I had in my mind was quickly replaced by so much gratitude at the relationship we had/have, even as friends. We started out as friends, for a short while at least, but we know more about each other than most humans know about another. Down to reading each other’s minds. Today alone, we’ve responded to the other’s thoughts, 3 or 4 times each… like a solid and exact response or action in response. It has been craaaazy. Our visions for the world are basically the same, and so are our mentalities. We love a lot of the same music, and are great people persons. Just, so many of the things are perfect. We flow together in such true symbiosis.

So yeah. This has been a great holiday, and it will continue to be. 2017, bring it on. 🙂


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